If you'd rather not read about sad stuff, just read the first two sentences in the next paragraph then skip the the last couple sentences and you should be able to get the gist of it. The reason I'm writing so much is mostly as documentation for me to look back on and remember things later.
So, I've been dealing with a really sad and troubling thing as of the last couple days.
My cat Bear, that I've had since I was around 5 years old, hasn't been doing well lately and we took him to the vet and ultimately decided that it would be best if he were put to sleep. Of course, it always feels terrible when you have to make that sort of decision and I'm finding it extremely painful because I honestly can't remember a time in my life when he wasn't around. I know even if we didn't do it his quality of life would just get worse than it already is. He doesn't do the things he used to enjoy like batting playfully at my legs when I walk by, hopping up in bed with me, and just other normal cat things. He can't even really sleep and relax comfortably. So later today, my mom is going to take him to the vet to be euthanized. I've been crying for probably around 2-3 hours, ever since I got out of class and found out. I felt like writing this could maybe help vent my feelings a little and help it sink in.
I will go ahead and say ahead of time, thanks for any support or condolences you might send me in the comments or elsewhere but I probably won't answer. Just know that I do appreciate it.
I may be a bit inactive due to all of this so just wanted to give a heads up.